grumpy morning

Hi all,
Well, I'm back from a great 4 day conference with a professional organization I belong to.  So inspiring to meet with this national group.  However, yesterday I had a run in with my boss over one of my designs here at work.  And today, I'm still feeling grumpy as all get out about it.

I know this is my ego and my will getting in my own way, but I'm struggling with it still 24 hours later nonetheless.  So, I'm hoping that writing about it will help.

The problem is that I finished this design for another department, and specifically didn't do something because they didn't want it designed that way.  Well, a well-meaning co-worker took my design to a weekly meeting we hold to discuss designs while I was out of the office.  In my opinion this design shouldn't have gone to this meeting because no other similar project designs ever do.  So I'm feeling resentful and persecuted about that whole aspect.

Then, I'm frustrated because what they decided at the meeting (that I was not at) was that I should do exactly what the other department didn't want.  Didn't they think I thought of that?  Didn't they think I discussed this with the other department?  So now I'm feeling like "less than" which plays into my whole ball of issues regarding self-esteen and feeling worthless.  Aiyiyi.

If anyone has any words of wisdom today, I sure could stand to hear them.  I keep asking myself "How important is it?" but so far I haven't been able to let it go.  Your experience, strength and hope would be appreciated.  For now, I'm going to try and connect to my HP and let it go.  And I may have to do that every minute for the rest of the day.

Hugs all,
Angela B.